Runaway

I woke up this morning, thinking about the things that might happen. Then I thought about you. I miss you. That's what my mind and my heart said to me. Then suddenly, I felt pain. Every time I think of you, may it be good or bad, I always feel pain. I don't know. I'm not sure where this pain came from. But one thing is for sure, I feel pain everytime I think about you not being with me. I think it's because of the fact that, no matter what I do, whenever life takes us, you'll never be mine.

I plan on skipping my first class. Then I realized I'll be seeing you there. But then again, that pain.. I felt that pain again. It strikes me! Knowing we'll be on the same class and I'll be able to see you. But I decided to skip class instead. I don't know. There is a part of me that wants to be with you, then there's this part of me that wants to runaway from you. I'm scared, really scared. I feel that if i'll stay long with you, I'll fall too deep. Too deep that I wouldn't be able to stand again. You make me so weak. I don't want that. I've felt that before and I don't wanna feel it again. If this keeps long, I won't be able to let go. The pain would stay longer and turn my life into misery. That is why, I want to runaway.