Comeback

I am back! It's been so long since I opened this blog. I never got the time to write something or anything here. Though my life was full of adventures recently. I got tired of writing so I stopped. But now I don't know what came over me. I was suddenly inspired to write again. So, here we go again! Writing weird stuffs!

Well today was no different than any other day. Except, I am in a different place. A place that is unfamiliar. A place that is so new to me. I've been here before for a couple of times. but I never really got the chance to explore it. It's something new that's why I feel kind of revitalized.  Why? Because, this will be my new "home" for the next couple of months or even years! Horaaayy! I feel that I need to make new changes in my life since I am in a new place. I want to be a better version of me so I will start doing that now that I am here. It's time to be more responsible, and most importantly, more mature! Yep! That's right! Goodbye childlike behavior! hello to being an adult! haha! I don't know... Seems kinda hard to do but I'm trying. I will be more serious with my life! I'm even trying to apply for a job! I sure do hope I can make it!
(^______^)

Senseless

I am completely insane right now. I don't even know why I'm doing this thing. This is stupid. A stupid thing stupid people do. So does this mean I'm stupid too? I am not quite sure. Still, I'll keep writing though..
I just want to vent out all this stupid thoughts still lingering inside my head. I just can't stop thinking about weird stuffs. Stuffs I don't even know would even be possible to happen. It's confusing and its becoming a burden to me lately.......   I changed my mind. I don't wanna vent it out anymore. I'm kinda tired thinking about it and now I'm going to write about it?! No way in hell I'll do that! Okay I'll stop now. Weird.

Hello!

Aloha! I've been longing to write on my blog for a very long time. I suddenly forgot my password, but I was too lazy to recover it..It's just now that I had the time to do so.. Well, a lot has happened for the last 3 months. woOoh! that was very long!!! specially now that I'm always alone..haha!

Time runs slow when you have nothing to do. Sometimes I think my life is a waste. I'm wasting my time waiting for the next day to come.... well this is bad..I run out of things to say...guess I'm not in the mood..tsk! till next time then..toOo bad..

Anticipated. . .

There are a lot of things in my mind right now. But the one thing that's clogging my mind ever since, is the very fact that soon you'll leave and be long gone. I am very much affectionate when it comes to situations like this. Among all other friends I had that comes and goes, you were the only ones whom I pretty much longed to stay. I never knew why I am these close to you, though you never did seem to have any interest in the things I like the most. Neither do you guys show that I am important to you too. But I don't care. As long as I feel this way to you, it's alright. You are all my best friends. I never felt something great like this before. Also, I've never felt this miserable ever since in my entire life. Sometimes, being with you makes me look so stupid and dumb. Sometimes it makes me feel sad and sometimes and makes me feel glad. But most of the time it makes me feel happy and contented. For when I'm with you, I can be me. I experience different sorts of happiness that I thought I would't feel. I can exaggerate a lot and do the silliest and craziest things. I hope that when were together, you were all true and honest of what you were showing me, because I am.

These passing days I've been very melodramatic and anxious about myself. I simply can't stand the feeling of being left alone all of a sudden. Going to school without no one to talk with and be together with makes me a hell lot insane! My heart aches everytime I remember all of you. I remember all of us being together and having fun. When I remember those things, I sometimes burst into tears. For I don't know when that day would happen again. All of us being together. Everytime I remember, I always regret the days that I was too foolish not to focus on for my future. I regret the times I never listened to all of you. I should have planned everything too. I really am stupid.

But, now theres nothing left for me to do but to focus so that I could come by and catch up with you. I have a goal now. You all made a great inspiration for me to continue the life I thought I've wasted and to try to start up again. I'll make all of you as one of my greatest motivation to be able to stand whenever life pulls me down the ground. I wish I could make it in time for my most anticipated REUNION.

soOo glad to hear your voice..(^_^)

I miss you so much that I had no choice but to call you. I just wanna hear your voice..just your voice and I will be okay. I tried my best to control this urge but today, I really didn't care.... A day without you seems more like a day without an internet connection.. it's BORING! tell me about it.
 I can't seem to know why I feel this way, but you are the one whom I miss the most. Maybe coz we were very close in the end. I keep asking myself, why just now? When our days were counted and our time was limited? Why our friendship bloomed just now? I should have known before that we'll be this close. It would have been nice if everything happened a little earlier. But I have no regrets. Atleast, in the long run, we did had a chance...

Thank you for the time. I enjoyed talking to you. It made me forget the loneliness I felt and the misery I've been going through. I was again, happy. Now I am sure of what I truly feel about you. I  love you & I care for you a lot. Well, as a friend I guess. But for whatever reason, I don't want you to misinterpret my actions. It would be a burden if we were to feel awkward with each other. That would suck! I'm contented of whatever we have right now! That's why. . . . . . . . I always pray to God that we'll never be apart, and that  you'll forever be my one special friend.(^_^)

A Plain Old Kiss

Some people need a peck or two

For others a simple smooch will do

Too many, a graze will stimulate

A few may want to osculate.

And then, there are those who need a smack;

For flowery words they have a knack.

But all I want from you is bliss,

Which you can give me with a plain, old kiss!

March 26, 2011 - Graduation Day

Ah! Graduation day! A lot of parents are all so very proud of their children graduating and goin'  up the stage, shakin' hands with WHOEVER & claiming their diploma. There would be fireworks and a lot of people are coming to witness a 1min exposure of their one and only graduate! hahahaha!!! Setting aside my sarcasm, I think its  a very BIG celebration and a very HAPPY one. Oh I wish I was graduating today too.

Well, all I can say is that today, is the most awaited day of my True Friends and also my fellow Ateneans. This is the day I feared the most. Well, that was weeks ago. Now, I am not afraid anymore! You know why?! Coz, It made me think of my friends who are very happy today. I can see their smiles as they go up the stage. It's an achievement for them. After I thought about that, It made me happy too...  the fear of losing them and not seeing them afterwards disappeared! I am very happy for them. So.... Instead of sulking and being bitter, I went to see them go up the stage and shake hands with WHOEVER that person maybe! hahaha!!! It was fun and it felt really good. I am so proud of them! All of 'em!  I never felt bad or even neglected. My happiness was genuine, that I can say. I realized... I'll have my time too. I'll go up that stage too.

After the very long and tiring event, we finally got the chance to have a little pictorial! hahaha! funny isn't it?! then we'll upload it on Facebook! nyahaha! joking! Anyway, it was fun. Its kinda odd though...No one ever CRIED. hmmm... so they're not gonna miss each other?! Even me! I was shocked! I thought I was gonna cry if ever this day comes! but NO! I didn't! It's still a mystery that is yet to be solved for me. But all Im sure of is that we were all soOooOOooo very, very, VERY happy!!! 

hmMmm...I haven't told the happiest moment yet! It is not just a day of achievement, but it is also a day of fulfillment for me! Well, let's just say my long awaited 'dream' was finally fulfilled! Well its not exactly a 'dream', its rather a longing or something that I really really would want to get from someone I consider very close to my heart. haha!!! Well, I finally got what she promised to give me on her graduation day! nyaks! Well, a promised is a promise. And what is that?! hmMmm...its for me to know and for me to keep only! hahaha!