Anticipated. . .

There are a lot of things in my mind right now. But the one thing that's clogging my mind ever since, is the very fact that soon you'll leave and be long gone. I am very much affectionate when it comes to situations like this. Among all other friends I had that comes and goes, you were the only ones whom I pretty much longed to stay. I never knew why I am these close to you, though you never did seem to have any interest in the things I like the most. Neither do you guys show that I am important to you too. But I don't care. As long as I feel this way to you, it's alright. You are all my best friends. I never felt something great like this before. Also, I've never felt this miserable ever since in my entire life. Sometimes, being with you makes me look so stupid and dumb. Sometimes it makes me feel sad and sometimes and makes me feel glad. But most of the time it makes me feel happy and contented. For when I'm with you, I can be me. I experience different sorts of happiness that I thought I would't feel. I can exaggerate a lot and do the silliest and craziest things. I hope that when were together, you were all true and honest of what you were showing me, because I am.

These passing days I've been very melodramatic and anxious about myself. I simply can't stand the feeling of being left alone all of a sudden. Going to school without no one to talk with and be together with makes me a hell lot insane! My heart aches everytime I remember all of you. I remember all of us being together and having fun. When I remember those things, I sometimes burst into tears. For I don't know when that day would happen again. All of us being together. Everytime I remember, I always regret the days that I was too foolish not to focus on for my future. I regret the times I never listened to all of you. I should have planned everything too. I really am stupid.

But, now theres nothing left for me to do but to focus so that I could come by and catch up with you. I have a goal now. You all made a great inspiration for me to continue the life I thought I've wasted and to try to start up again. I'll make all of you as one of my greatest motivation to be able to stand whenever life pulls me down the ground. I wish I could make it in time for my most anticipated REUNION.